Desperate and Confused

So right now I might be facing the fact that I could be living in my car for awhile unlsess I can some how come up with money for rent and electricity. On top of that I have the phone payment, car payment, insurance, and trying to pay for my wedding. My fiance and I have applied everywhere trying to get a job and are running out of options. It would be nice if someplace would call or even give us the time of day. We are just getting so desperate. We have been selling stuff online and trying to borrow money only when we need it from our parents. If anyone has any ideas please tell us. We are willing to do anything right now.

Don't Know What To Do

I don't know what to do right now because all I want to do is sleep, but that's not even an option right now because I might have a concussion or something. My eyes are really heavy and my entire head hurts. All this because I hit my head on the wall while I was having a nightmare. It almost feels as if they are getting worse and worse as time goes on. My poor fiance is so worried about me, but there is nothing that he can do. I feel as if this is something I have to handle on my own, but I really don't want to because I'm so scared. I don't ever want to face anything on my own. I need him by my side at all times. It's nice to know that he is there to help me through anything and that's exactly what I need right now. I don't know how I got throught life before him, but I do know that if it wouldn't have been for him I would probably be dead right now. He literally saved my life.

Positive

With everything finally looking up I am a lot less stressed out all the time. I'm more focused and not so cranky. The most stressful thing in my life right now is trying to find a job and so far it's going pretty well. I have applied at quite a few different places and I am just really hoping that one of them calls me in for an interview sometime. I also hope that the work environment will be a lot friendlier than my last job. All they talked about all night long was sex, drugs, and alcohol. I have had this blog for about three years now and since I haven't blogged in awhile I guess I forgot how much of a stress reliever it was for me. Since I've started blogging again I feel incredibly relaxed and focused. Things are definately getting better.

Life Update

My life is going absolutely amazing. I really couldn't be happier right now. I'm getting married to the best guy in the entire world and we are trying to start a family together. We have an amazing car, a nice apartment, and things are finally starting to go our way. Granted we are both jobless right now, but my dad did offer my fiance some work until he can find a real job. My parents are finally starting to pay me the money that they borrowed from me. Honestly, the thing that I really can't seem to accept is that I'm getting maried. It all seems like a fantasy. It's getting late now so I think I'm gonna go to bed. I will give another update tomorrow.