Concession Stands

I had no idea that the concession stands got that busy at half-time. It was crazy. I tried to be there as much as I could, but my mom and dad kept calling me into the gym to talk to me. Towards the end of the second game, my mom told me it was time to quit working at the concessions stand and watch my brother. I took him up onto the stage to sit down and watch the game. There were people standing in front of us, so Brayden stood up. Me and Amanda sat down to rest our feet and then Brayden had to go to the bathroom. I was holding his hand, but he managed to slip away. I ran after him and he went into the boy's bathroom. I obviously couldn't go after him. My dad had apparently seen him run off the stage because after a bit, he came to the bathrooms and went into the boy's bathroom. He told me that my mom wanted me and I was thinking,"Great. What now?" My mom was mad because there were people standing in front of Brayden where we were sitting. I told her that he was standing and could see perfectly fine. She didn't believe that. She also didn't believe me when I told her that I wasn't making him sit down. I actually told him to stand up so he could see the game better. My mom told me that I had to sit with her for the rest of the game. It totally sucked. Oh well. At least what I saw of the game was good.

I Need a Life

So I have no life. This weekend I'm woking the concession stand at the basketball games. It be great if I could hang out with someone sometime, but everyone always seems to be busy and they all seem to have a life. My friend got the flu. We knew she would. Today's her birthday. For the past three years (this year makes four) she's had the flu on her birthday. Have a happy birthday Amanda Brader...

Music and Books

I love music, but I'm starting to get sick of hearing the same songs again and again. I'm ready for something new. Does anyone have any good song suggestions? I would love to hear some different songs. I also love to read, so if anyone has any good book suggestions, let me know. If you want some book suggestions, I've got some.
Blue Bloods series by Melissa De la Cruz
Private series by Kate Brian
Privilege series by Kate Brian
Pretty Little Liars series by Sara Shepard
The Lying Game by Sara Shepard
These are all great books. I'm in love with vampires, so the "Blue Bloods" series is all about vampires. It's not the same legends that you hear over and over again and again. It's not about Dracula either. Come to think about it, I don't even think they mention Dracula once. These vampires can only die two different ways. Of course I'm not going to tell you what they are. These are definitely some of the best vampire books. I might be stretching it here, but I think that they might even be better than "Twilight". We keep hearing about the same old vampire myths, so these are something different. I hope you enjoy them. If you've already read them, then let me know what you thought about them.
The "Private" and "Privilege" series are like a chick book and a mystery all in one. They have romance, mystery, action, and humor. I can't say too much about these books though because just saying one little detail will almost always give the story away.
Do I even have to say anything about the "Pretty Little Liars" series? I know that people have read them and most people who have, enjoyed them. They were a big hit because they made a tv show based off of them. And the show is a big hit too.
Sara Shepard is starting to write another series now that she's done writing "Pretty Little Liars". The new series is called "The Lying Game". I haven't started reading it yet, but I heard it's really good.

My Top Favorite Songs

All Summer Long-Kid Rock
Angels Among Us-Alabama
Big Green Tractor- Jason Aldean
Black and Yellow-Wiz Khalifa
Boom Boom Pow-Black Eyed Peas
Bottoms Up-Trey Songz
Cha Cha Slide-DJ Casper
Check Yes or No-George Straight
Christmas Shoes-Alabama
Come on Over Baby- Christina Aguilera
Crazy Train -Ozzy Osbourne
Cupid Shuffle-Cupid
Dance of the Devil- Immortal Technique
Different World- Bucky Covington
Dirty Little Secret- All American Rejects
Don't Stop Believing- Journey
Dream On- Aerosmith
Everytime We Touch-Cascada
Farmer's Daughter-Rodney Atkins
Feels Like the First Time- Foriegner
Fighter- Christina Aguilera
Fireflies- Owl City
Firework- Katy Perry
Funhouse-Pink
Gimmie that Girl-Joe Nichols
God Bless Saturday- Kid Rock
Going Through Hell- Rodney Atkins
Gotta be Somebody-Nickleback
Haven't Met You Yet-Michael Buble
Here We Go Again- Demi Lovato
Holes in the Floor of Heaven-Steve Wariner
I Kissed a Girl- Katy Perry
I Like It-Enrique Iglasias
I'll be There for You-The Rembrants
I'm Already There- Lonestar
In Crowd- Mitchell Musso
International Harvester-Craig Morgan
Jar of Hearts-Christina Perri
Just Like A Pill-Pink
Like a G6-Far East Movement
London Bridge- Fergie
Lost in this Moment with You- Big and Rich
Love the Way You Lie- Rhianna
Good Girls Go Bad-Cobra Starship
Marry Me- Train
Mississippi Girl- Faith Hill
Mockingbird- Eminem
Mr. Mom- Lonestar
Never Gonna Be Alone-Nickleback
New Divide- Linkin Park
OMG-Usher
Online- Brad Paisley
Photograph- Nickleback
Poison- Alice Cooper
Put You in a Song- Keith Urban
Rain is a Good Thing-Luke Bryan
Raise Your Glass- Pink
Rhythm of Love- Plain White T's
Second Chance- Shinedown
Start a Fire- Ryan Star
Shake It- Metro Station
She's in Love With A Boy-Trisha Yearwood
Shout It- Mitchell Musso
Shut Up and Drive-Rhianna
Sober- Pink
Song in My Head-Julliane Hough
Song of the South-Alabama
Tell Me Something I Don't Know-Selena Gomez
This is How You Remind Me-Nickleback
This Kiss- Faith Hill
Tik Tok- Ke$ha
Tonight I'm Just Me- Shadaisy
Too Late To Apologize-One Republic
Umbrella- Rhianna
Waking Up in Vegas- Katy Perry
Walking In Memphis-Lonestar
We are Who We are-Ke$ha
What Hurts the Most- Rascal Flatts
When I grow up- Pussycat Doll
Your Love is my Drug- Ke$ha

It's Almost Better

I'm feeling better about Mitch now. Like a lot better. It's like my heart breaks all over again everytime I see him, but it hurts less and less everytime. I'm just hoping that eventually it won't hurt at all.
By the way does anyone else think that this is true?

More Great Quotes

We will be friends...
As long as stars twinkle in the sky...
As long as angels are there up high...
'Til oceans run dry
And 'til the day I die.
A friend would lend you an umbrella, but a best friend would take yours and say run b***h run.
A memory lasts forever, never does it die... true friends stay together and never say goodbye...
One day I caught myself smiling for no reason, then I realized I was thinking of you.
Friendship is like money; easier made than kept.

So here's to...

The crap we talk

The guys we stalk

The way we shop

The laughs we can't stop

The gossip we spill

The looks that could kill

We'll stay together

'Cuz we're

Best friends forever!

A true friend reaches for you hand and touches your heart.

Me and you is friends

You smile, I smile...

You hurt, I hurt...

You cry, I cry...

You jump off a bridge

I gonna miss your e-mails.

So...

I'm ready to live my life and enjoy myself at Winter Royalty. I found out that I already have 180 credits and by the end of this semester I'll have almost all of them. I only need a few more math credits and then I can graduate! Yeah!!!!!

Thank You

I have been inspired by Christina Aguilera's song "Fighter". I would like to thank Mitch for disappointing me. It showed me that it might be tough to have your heart broken, but if you keep fighting you'll move on. It's gonna be tough, but looks like I'm gonna have to deal with it. It definately makes me feel better that I have a good support system behind me.

Some of the Best Quotes for a Broken Heart

Worst News

I got some of the worst news of my life. Mitch has a girlfriend. The reason I didn't know about her is because she goes to the Pierce high school. Like I said, worst news of my life.

Great Quotes

I want to be his favorite hello and his hardest goodbye.
Gems may be precious, but friends are priceless.
A friend is someone who knows all about you yet loves you just the same.
Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them, but you know they're always there.
Love isn't finding someone you can live with, it's finding someone you can't live without.
True friends are never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart.
Do what makes you happy; be with who makes you smile; laugh as much as you breathe; love as long as you live.
Friends are like a four leaf clover, hard to find, but lucky to have.
Friends are gold, but best friends are platinum.
I'm surrounded by angels, I call them my best friends.
Our inside jokes- too many to name; when we're apart it's never the same; when we're together it's nothing but fun; replacing my girls just can't be done.
Best friends, they know how crazy you are and still choose to be seen in public with you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

 

My best friend's birthday is on Friday! Sad part is that for the past three years, she's had the flu on her birthday. I am not even joking it's so weird. I really hope that she doesn't have the flu this year. She doesn't want Friday to come. She thinks that Friday should just be skipped and we should go straight from Thursday to Saturday. I told her that as awesome and totally weird as that would be, I don't think that it's gonna happen. She said,"I know, but it should do it anyway because I said so." I hope she doesn't have the flu so that maybe this year we could celebrate her birthday together this year. Fingers crossed.

I can't believe it

I can't believe they canceled Winter Royalty. To me this is like a second chance. The weather was so bad that my mom said I shouldn't go before the school even called. I was so upset, but then after we got the call, I felt better because the weather might be better and I can go. After my mom told me I couldn't go, I kind of started complaining. My mom said I shouldn't go at all because I was only being good so I could go to the dance. Hopefully she'll change her mind and still let me go. She was in a pretty good mood for the rest of the weekend so I'm hopeful.

My Poem For Mitch G.

Don't you just love my new background? I finally found the perfect picture that shows how I feel.
Here is the poem that I wrote for Mitch:
Love of my life,
Now gone forever.
I will never get another chance,
Another chance to say "I love you",
To say how much you mean to me.
You stole my heart,
And shattered it into a million pieces.
I wish you would have noticed me.
You're my love, my life.

I will never forget you.
The way you smiled.
The way you laughed.
The way you said,"What's up".
I was too scared to ask you,
Ask you to be my date,
And now it's too late.
You're too perfect for me.
You're still my love, my life.

Having fun... NOT!

I was so excited to go to Winter Royalty and now my parents say I shouldn't go because my cousin's coming up for the whole weekend. I'm gonna be gone for one night. Plus, I don't see why I can't take him with me since he's a sophmore. My mom says that there's no point in going because I don't have a date. I told her I just wanted to hang out with my friends. She didn't say anything after that. I hope she'll still let me go. I actually asked Jose if he would like to go with me as a friend/date and he said okay. Maybe my parents will let me go since he's my "date". Keep your fingers crossed.

His identity is revealed

I see him everywhere I go now. He's always somewhere near me. I don't know if that's a sign, but it's starting to weird me out a little. I thought about this for a while and decided to finally reveal the mystery boy's identity. Are you ready? Here it goes. His name is Mitch Groninger.

Joy

Sandboxes and mud,
Rubber ducks and teddy bears,
Princesses and ponies,
These are the joys of being children.

poems

Has anyone else read Zak's spaghetti poem? Oh my gosh! It was so disgusting and funny at the same time.

Oh Boy!

Today one of my friends was crying. Her parents got into a fight last night. My parents have been in a lot of fights and I've just learned to deal with it. It hasn't ever really bothered me as horrible as that sounds. It's really hard for me to help her because she's so sensitive. I don't know what to do. Sadly, I really never know what to do. She went down stairs and locked herself in her bedroom and cried all night. I feel so bad for her. I know one of the best things that I can do is just be there for her, but I don't think that's enough. I feel that I'm supposed to do something else, but what?

I need your advice

So today I'm doing better, but it still sucks that I got rejected. I'm going with my friends to the dance and can't wait to get there and get my mind off of him. I'm debating whether I should keep him nameless or not. I'll decide later I guess. My friend Amanda said that I could borrow one of her dresses for Winter Royalty. It's one of my favorites and it's black. I think that it makes me look really skinny, which is a good thing considering how fat I really am. As long as I look amazing I think I'll be okay. I'm wondering if he's just going to be busy on Saturday or not. Because if he is going to be busy, then I would ask him out again, but give him a date that's far enough in advance for him to not have any other plans. I don't know if I'm pushing it or not, but maybe I'll ask him to go to prom with me. Should I ask him or should I just forget about him (which is very hard to do)? Of course I wouldn't ask him today. I would wait until like March or something. It seriously took me up until yesterday to finally talk to the guy. I need someone to give me some advice.

Prom Dresses

http://www.bridaldesigns-sb.com/Catalog2.htm
This is one of the best sights for prom dresses. I totally think that I'm going to get my prom dress from this place. I can't believe that I can finally go to prom. I am so totally excited, but I'm still really bummed about... well, he's still going to remain nameless. At least prom gives me something to focus on. I could really use a big distraction right now. Oh well, looks like focusing on prom will have to be a big enough distraction.

I'm crying right now

Well, I asked him to go to the dance with me. He said the thing that I was fearing the most. Well, second most actually. He didn't say straight up no, but he did say that he wasn't going to Winter Royalty. : ( What am I going to do?! I am so upset. I'm sitting here crying and some people are giving me weird looks. It was so embarassing. I looked like an idiot, I swear. I don't really feel bad that no on will go with me, I feel bad because I pretty much got rejected by the guy that stole my heart. I'm pretty sure I don't have a heart anymore because he just shattered it. Should I give up and never try to talk to him again or should I give it another shot and ask him to do something with me? I don't really want to talk to him again because I'm so afraid of rejection and I looked ridiculous asking out this insanly hot guy out. I swear that all I want to do right now is cry and cry and cry and cry. I think I just want to go home and cry. My mom will ask me what's wrong and when I tell her she won't believe me. I've been trying to ask him out all year and I've never done it. So she probably won't believe me when I tell her that I tried. It seems so unbelievable. I look really stupid sitting here and crying, but I don't know what else to do. I'm not sure I can ever talk to him again. He probably thinks I'm some idiot who's desperate for a date. Well, I'm not. As crazy and stalkerish and stupid as this sounds, I was desperate for him. He stole my heart in the beginning and shattered it in the end. I don't want this to be the end, but I don't know what else this could be. I'm pretty sure my life ended and my reason for living has rejected me and I won't get another shot at love. That was it. : (

Tired

Today I feel so tired and I even slept in this morning. I didn't get to school until about twenty minutes before fourth period was over. That sucks. Oh well. I'm here anyway and now I'm ready to go home. : )

Forever and Always

Do you know that book called forever and always? Well, someone I know told me a different version and I just thought it was rather interesting how they can completely turn it around.
I'll dislike you for always,
I'll hate you forever,
As long as I'm living my mommy you'll never be.
The original way it was written was:
I'll like you for always,
I'll love you forever,
As long as I'm living my mommy you'll be.
Isn't that sad. The son is saying this in the book as his mother is dying. Isn't it just sad how someone can say that mean, horrible version. Forever and Always just happens to be one of my favorite childhood books and to think that someone could say something like that about their mother is just sickening. I don't think that I have ever written something about how much I hate my mom. No parent deserves to be treated that way. And mom, if you read this, I'm sorry for all the mean and hurtfull things I've ever said to you. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!

LOVE OF MY LIFE

Winter Royalty is almost here and I still haven't asked the guy out. How pathetic is that?! When will I ever have the courage to talk to him? Is there anyone who can help me? I feel so stupid for always complaining about being scared to talk to the guy, but it's not like I can ever talk to someone face to face about it. I just think that it would be easier to forget about him. But it's so hard to do considering how much I like him. I want to let go, but I just can't. I also think that I make things too complicated. Is there anyone who can give me advice on what to do? Talk to him and ask him out or just admire him from afar? I know it sounds crazy, but I think he could be the love of my life. I don't want to miss out on being with my one true love and all, but I can't get up the courage to talk to him. HELP ME!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!

Yeah!!!! I got my first comment for one of my blogs today! Apparently "I hate my life" was a hit. My life just got better. I know it's kind of sad for me to get all excited over a comment, but no one has commented on my blogs before this so I'm happy that someone actually took the time to read something that I wrote. Yeah me!!!!

I hate my life!!!!

My parents grounded me and my mom involuntarily volunteered me to help at the Christ Lutheran School carnival. She didn't even ask if I had plans tonight. I didn't, but that's not the point. My point is that she didn't even take into consideration that I might have plans. Oh well. Looks like I'll have to get over it. Is there anyone else out there that understands my pain. I'm not allowed to walk over to my friends house because I'm grounded. My parents said that They're going to start coming in and picking me up directly from the Achievment Center. Half the time I don't even have anything to do. The AC closes earlier on Friday's and my mom is a teachers aid at Christ Lutheran School which is out at 3:30 every day. On Friday's we're out at 2:00. How are they going to pick me up at the Ac if it's not even open that long? When my mom picks me up from my friends house, she doesn't usually get there until about 4:00. I really hate my life!!!!!!!

WHY???!!!

Why am I such a scaredy cat?! I was going to ask this guy to go to the movies or something and right before I opened my mouth, I chickened out because I thought it would be a "bad idea". I know I'm scared of rejection and all, but I thought I would be over that by now. I am incredibly shy when it comes to talking to him. AAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!! Why do boys have to be so complicated? I wish I knew if he at least knew that I existed or not.

Lunch...

I hate my lunch this semester. None of my friends have lunch with me anymore. It totally sucks!!!!!! My friend Jose also switched his math period. Now I only have one friend in my math, June. This semester is horrible. But I guess it's not a total loss because my friend Alex has mythology with me first period and my best friend forever, Amanda, has third period study hall with me. Now I just wish that we had the same lunch. June tried to get her lunch switched back to fifth period, but she had no luck. The cutest guy, in my opinion, has the same lunch as me, but I'm too much of a wuss to go and talk to him. I asked him to help me with my math and he said he would, but I haven't talked to him since and that was last semester right before Christmas break. I also have him in my practical communications class and he sits almost directly behind me. I don't think he notices me though. I wish he would. Oh well. I guess my lunch (and part of my life) will just have to suck. Who knows, maybe God has some bigger plan that I don't know about. I don't know what it is, but I sure hope it's good. I would love to switch my lunch, but I don't want to completely change my classes so I'll just keep it. I'm pretty happy with the rest of my classes, but I could live without the sucky lunch. I guess it could be worse.

Football

Who doesn't love football? Only a crazy person could not love football. My absolute favorite team is the Indianapolis Colts. My second favorite team would have to be the New York Giants because Eli Manning is so hot. I'm a little bummed out because the Colts aren't going to the Superbowl this year. They lost to the New York Jets by one point!!!!!! The New Orleans Saints almost went to the Superbowl aggain too. I totally thought that it would be a rematch between the Colts and the Saints, but no, both teams had to lose last Sunday. I can't wait to see who's in the Superbowl this year. I hope the Giants make it. Then I can actually cheer for somebody. If the San Diego Chargers and the New York Giants are the two teams, my mom and I will be going head to head this year. I can't wait for the Superbowl!!!!!!!!! I am so totally excited!!!!!!!! The Superbowl is on Febuary sixth which is the day before my cousin's birthday. So I might be in Columbus for the Superbowl which will be even more fun because we can all watch the game together. We'll get cheering and everyone will argue over the penalties and who's the better team. This year's Superbowl is going to be a blast!!!!!

Sunday

Today's Sunday and I'm sitting in Sunday School trying to get a U Tube video clip to work. We're talking about the problems in Haiti and how we can help. Working at Orphan Grain Train is a great way to help. Everyone can help support the people in Haiti. We just have to work together.

Bullying

Why do people bully others? Because it makes them feel more powerful and more in control. A lot of people that are bullies have abusive parents or in some way have a bad home life. I was bullied once and it wasn't fun. It happened at school and to make myself feel better, I went home and picked on my siblings. It felt good to be the one controlling their emotions and making them cry. I had a good home life, but I didn't have a very good school life. It works the same way with a bad home life. I had a friend that helped me get through it, and granted, I still pick on my siblings, but it's just playful fun. It isn't to be mean or anything. When I get mad, I say hurtful things to them and my parents, but I never mean what I say. I still love them. Even when they're annoying and embarassing. I guess all I'm trying to say is that people don't have to bully others to feel better. Talk to a friend and if they're a true friend they'll stick with you through the whole thing

Creative Writing Class

I love to write. It's the thing that helps me relax. This is the reason why I chose to take the Creative Writing class. Not to mention, Ms. Rowse is the best teacher ever. In Creative Writing, you can write about anything you want. Ilove coming up with stories and writing essay papers. I can research all the information and learn something new everytime. One time I did a big report on the Real Dracula. I learned all the myths behind Dracula. I love Creative Writing.