Late Nights

Late nights are getting boring. I don't even get to spend any of it with my husband because he has to work in the morning. Now I just sit here and watch "How I Met Your Mother" all freaking night. I don't even really have anything to look forward to in life anymore. I am already married, I can't have children, I can't get a job, and moving away seems like it will never happen. I feel so lonely and out of touch with myself lately. I don't know, I really just want to pick up everything and go on the road, but that is really hard to do with no money. Yeah, Justin has a job, but after bills and everything else there's just no money leftover for traveling and spontaneity. Oh well. Guess I will have to get over it. I'm ready for bed now. Talk more later.

Married Life Part 1

Well something new and exciting happened in my life. I finally got married to the most wonderful man. His name is Justin Henrickson and we have been married for a little over two months now. I am happy and confident enough to say that I believe we will spend the rest of our lives together. I want to run away with him and start a wonderful life together. I will give more of a life update later. Keep enjoying life. :)

Boy Dilema

Well I got dumped again. What's new though, right? I just don't know what to do with myself. Every guy I meet ends up falling in love with my best friend instead of me. What should I do? I really want to find Mr. Right so that I can finally settle down and have a family of my own. Someone please help.

Mother's Day

I don't know what I am getting my mom for Mother's Day yet and I don't even know if I will be able to get her anything because I have to pay off a damn fine and all of my money is going towards that. I love my mom and last year I didn't get her anything and it makes me feel terrible. Oh well. I guess I will figure it out somehow.

Being Single Sucks

I just want to find that perfect person to cuddle with when I'm feeling down. Someone to love me for me and they overlook my flaws. Is that too much to ask for? Apparently it is. I see all these people from high school getting married and having kids. That's my dream  too. So why isn't it happening to me? Is God punishing me for something I did? Will it ever happen for me at all? These are questions I will lay awake at night thinking about. If anyone has any advice, I'm sure up for listening to it.

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Knowing that the person who has supposedly claimed to be you best friend for years doesn't actually care about how you feel. Isn't that what a best friend is for? She is supposed to be there to support you when you can't be strong. I am so stressed beyond belief. I have court coming up, both of my sisters have surgery coming up, and my supposed best friend is really sick. I don't know what to do.

Teenage Regrets

Don't let the title fool you. I don't have normal teenage regrets. Most teenagers regret going out and partying and getting drunk and high. I didn't have that. My parents didn't let me go out and have fun whenever I wanted to. I got to listen to my best friend tell me when she was going out and what all her plans were with some other friends. She was telling me about when they go out of town and just cruise on back roads. Just having some innocent fun and some of the stories I have heard are actually pretty funny. But here lately I have really been thinking about it more than I used to. At that time I just felt left out, but now I fell like I missed out on some awesome experiences. I want to go to the  pool every day, go down to the river, sit around a bon fire and drink a little, and cruise on back roads just for the hell of it. I got to go out and cruise on back roads one time and that was just like a tease to me. I wanted and still do want more of that. Now I just kind of lay around and wonder what that would have been like. I know it wasn't my fault that I didn't get to do any of that, but I still regret it. On the bright side I still get to have a little taste of it this coming summer. We are going to be going to some fairs and going to the pool which I'm so excited for. At least I do get to live a little before I get too old.