I Wonder...

I am seriously wondering if the people that tell me that someone is trying to take advantage of me are actually the ones taking advantage of me. I'm so confused and lost. It feels like they don't want me making my own decisions and that's all I want to do. If I decide to make my own decisions then that means breaking a lot of promises and I am seriously debating if I will feel guilty about that or not. Does this make me a bad friend or person? I really don't know. I seem to be caring about everyone else and not myself and it really sucks. I'm very confused right now. Help me!

Starting My Life

My life has finally come together. My future is all laid out in front of me. I'm moving in with my best friend in January and then sometime in the future we are all moving to a farm. I have a wonderful boyfriend that is a lot like Jon and that's perfect because I know that Jon is a great guy and I have always wanted a guy like him. He treats me the way that I deserve to be treated and he loves me just the way that I am. No reason for me to change. I also have plans to go back to school so that I can go on to be a counselor of some sort.
I have figured out that my own biological parents weren't very good parents and now my best friend, Amanda, is more of a mom than my own mother was and Jon is more of a dad than my own father. I love my family now. Although I am very scared of the way my siblings are probably getting treated right now. They shouldn't have to go through the same shit that I went through. All of that aside, I am just really excited to finally start my life the right way.