A Bad Couple Months

So my wedding that was supposed to be in February ended up getting canceled because the pastor found out that we were living together. We moved the date to May so our wedding is actually going to be outdoors unless it decides to rain and knowing my luck it will. Now I'm just chilling at home listening to music waiting for the love of my life to get home. I'm just not sure what to do today. I still can't drive because I don't have a driver's license. It's too cold to walk anywhere and I have been aching like crazy. I went to the doctor the other day for a pregnacy test and they told me it came back negative even though I haven't had my period for two months, I've had cravings, weight gain, and my breasts hurt like crazy and they are swelling. It really sucks because none of my clothes fit anymore. So the doctor decided to test me for thyroid problems which meant I had to have my blood drawn and I really DO NOT LIKE NEEDLES. When I walked into the room they had everything laid out on the table. The second I seen it I was freaking out. I went white and fell back a little bit. Thank God Adam was behind me to catch me. The stupid nurse actually asked me if I was going to faint. It was like noooo I just fell backwards for something to do. In the middle of getting my blood drawn I was completely freaking out. The nurse asked me if I wanted to stop for a minute. What kind of question is that?! I just wanted to get it done and over with. I am so gonna laugh if the thyroid test comes back negative and they find out I'm actually pregnant. Adam and I have been trying so hard to have a baby. It's kind of disappointing to keep having tests come back negative. But we will keep trying. Well I guess I have nothing else to write about. I will have more to write another day.