Gone To Hell

My life has completely gone to hell since the last time I wrote. I was supposed to get married and have a family by now, but obviously that did not happen. Three weeks ago I went to my sister's volleyball game in Fremont.I left at about 1:00 pm and I came back at about 9:00 pm. When I got home Adam's car was not home. I thought that was weird, but then I remembered he said he might go over to his parent's place for dinner so I decided to check if he was there. He wasn't. I checked his sister's house and his grandparents' place and he wasn't there either. Since he had a history of cheating I decided to check his ex-girlfriend's place. Still wasn't there. Then my dad had a suggestion: maybe he left a note in the apartment so we went there. The second I walked through the door I automatically noticed that the TV was gone. I turned on the light and there was a note on the wall from Adam saying he was done with me. I cried for days. I even left town to try and get rid of the memories. It didn't work because I still think about him all the time.
It's really hard to forget about someone when they show up at your door with their new girlfriend trying to show you up. Now I don't want to sound like the jealous ex-girlfriend, but his new girlfriend is like a negative two compared to me. I would be like a ten and that's saying something because my self esteem is at an all time low right now.
Adam and I did everything together and spent every free moment together. That probably seems bad, but at the time I absolutely loved it. Being with someone that actually wanted to be with me felt really good. But he was dragging me down and I realize that now. I quit my job so I could be with him and I really never should have done that. I even at one point gave up my family for him because they couldn't get along. He wasn't worth any of my time. I feel like I wasted ten months of my life on him, but then I remember that if it wasn't for all the mistakes I made I would never learn anything.
I have finally got my life together. I'm getting a job and saving for a car. Someday I will be able to look at him and it won't hurt anymore. Someday I will be strong. Someday I will love again.