Just Really Don't Know What To Do

Well I'm trying to live life to the fullest right now and it's really not working. My own family doesn't even care what happens to me. People say that I had it coming and I'm not afraid to admit that, but can we please let it go and let me enjoy the little bit of freedom I have left. I just want to have people believe in me and tell me I can get through this. And to add on top of things Troy is being a dick. He is saying a crap ton of shit to me and he says that he's just kidding, but I know better than that. The fact that I might go to prison in a month and a half is a scary thought and the only person that is truly helping me feel the slightest bit better is my best friend Amanda. Not sure what else I can really do. I guess I will update this later.